Getting rid of the Mummy Martyr


Is it just me who sometimes falls into having a victim complex? Sometimes I start thinking I’m a martyr and forget I’m mum.

So I’m at a BBQ and another Mum asks me about how my baby is sleeping. I tell her she is in bed by about 8.30 and usually wakes up twice during the night.

“Mine is in bed by 7,” she replies. “Otherwise he becomes over tired. Actually its great, he’s been sleeping through since 6 weeks.”

My first reaction is to think that this mum is so judgemental. She thinks I’m a bad mum because my baby doesn’t sleep through the night. She thinks she’s so bloody superior!

Well lately I’ve been telling myself to just get over it. I’m not a victim and I should have confidence in myself as a mum. The other mum is probably just proud of her own child. And even if she does think I’m hopeless – who cares?! I know I do my best.

If a mum tells me they adore co-sleeping, it doesn’t mean they think I’m evil for using a cot. If I talk about how I love breastfeeding it doesn’t mean I think mums are bad people if they use formula. It’s great that mums have the freedom to talk about their opinions with each other. I actually love it when a mum is informed and passionate, even if I don’t agree with everything she says.

I don’t want to waste another second worrying about feeling judged. I would hate to pass on insecurities to my daughter. I hope she always does her best, does what she loves and what she know’s is right. Only she can truly judge the integrity of her actions.

So goodbye mummy martyr. I never liked you much anyway.


The Art of Boring Conversation

I’m taking a a risk writing about this topic. It could be the dullest thing you’ve ever read.

The other day at the park, I was standing near a group of women and I couldn’t help hearing their conversation. It was so intensely boring I had to move away.

So what was so boring? Well here is my list of some of the most boring conversation topics. It was one of the following.

1. Dreams

I’m guilty of this one. By dreams I mean those crazy things you think of when asleep. It may be wildly fascinating when you wake up – but that’s only to you. Retelling your dream is painful for a listener. They’re always long, pointless and confusing.

The only way to avoid your listener completely zoning out is to keep the description of your dream snappy.

“Last night I dreamt I met Elvis and he came to my wedding,” you might say. Please just leave it at that.

2. Movie Plots

Have you ever asked a friend something like this? – “What do you think of the the latest James Bond movie? Is it any good.” You’re looking for a two sentence response. Instead they give you this –

“When Bond’s latest assignment goes gravely wrong and agents around the world are exposed, MI6 is attacked forcing M to relocate the agency. These events cause her authority and position to be challenged by Gareth Mallory (Ralph Fiennes), the new Chairman of the Intelligence and Security Committee. With MI6 now compromised from both inside and out, M is left with one ally she can trust: Bond. 007 takes to the shadows – aided only by field agent, Eve (Naomie Harris) – following a trail to the mysterious Silva (Javier Bardem), whose lethal and hidden motives have yet to reveal themselves.
Bond’s mission is to keep a computer drive that has a list of British agents from being used against them. He chases the man who has it and they have a brawl on top of a train. Eve, an agent sent to assist Bond has them in her cross hairs but hesitates to take the shot because she might hit Bond but M orders her to take it. Which she does and hits Bond who falls into the river and is believed to be dead. A few months later, the British government is upset with MI6 for losing the list; specifically with M. She is told that she’ll be allowed to retire but she refuses to leave till the while matter is resolved. So she returns to HQ to work on it but as she arrives, there’s an explosion. In the meantime, Bond, who is not dead, has been laying low. When he learns of what happened, he returns. And M tasks him with finding the one who has the information. He eventually learns that the man who has it, is someone from M’s past and who has it in for her. Written by
When one MI6 hard disc with the identities of NATO’s agents is stolen, James Bond chases the agent through Istanbul with the support of the local field agent Eve. M (Judi Dench) orders Eve to shoot the agent on the top of a train, but she misses the target and hits 007 that falls in a river and is presumed dead. When M’s computer is hacked, the MI6 building is blown-up and the agency moves to an ancient bunker that belonged to Churchill. Then, five MI6 agents have their identities exposed and three of them are executed and M has her authority and procedure questioned by her superior Gareth Mallory. Out of the blue, 007 reappears from the shadows and hunts down the responsible for the theft of the HD. He reaches Severine and uses her to find the responsible for the actions, the former top-notch MI6 agent Tiago Rodriguez, a.k.a. Silva, who had been betrayed by M and now is seeking out revenge against the veteran leader of the MI6. Written by Claudio Carvalho, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
Bond’s latest adventure takes him deep to the heart of Istanbul to retrieve a hard disc containing the names of NATO operatives, their whereabouts, and their real identities. Unfortunately the mission goes horribly awry and ends with Bond getting shot while on the roof of a train. Fortunately Bond survives and is enjoying life on a remote Mediterranean island. But an untimely and horrific attack compromises MI-6, kills 6 agents, and ultimately compromises M herself. Then a mysterious hacker, using the newly obtained data, outs the agents on Youtube – compromising their missions and identities. That brings Bond back out of retirement. He then goes on a cat and mouse chase after a reclusive computer hacker – taking him to Shanghai, Macau, Japan, and ultimately back to London and his childhood home called “Skyfall” While the hacker has ties to M’s past, it puts Bond’s loyalty to the ultimate test. Will he be able to stop it before it’s too late?”

I hope you didn’t bother reading that. I’m never able to listen to a plot description beyond two sentences. It’s simply impossible.

3. Your Day in Detail

Some of us love retelling our day in detail. This is a risky move. Unless you are Ricky Gervais or Miranda Hart it’s going to be awful. Some people still persist. There are no jokes and no insights; its just what they had for breakfast, the trip to the gym, a ponytail that didn’t sit right, the search for a good soy latte and it goes on. Truly torturous.

4. Mediocre Interests

I’ll gladly listen to someone talk about the social habits of finches or the pros and cons of types of plastic, however it must be done with enthusiasm.

“How’s your soccer going?”

“Not bad”

“You just got back from the snow. How was it?

“Pretty good – yeah.”

“What did you get up to on the weekend?”

“This and that. Mostly just hanged around.”

This mysterious approach to conversation really only works if you’re in a spy film. In real life, it’s very boring.

5. Sleep

Personally, this is the most boring topic of all. Since becoming a Mum I’ve found myself involved in too many sleep conversations. I’ve even instigated the conversation! How’s your baby sleeping? Through the night? What time do they go to bed? Get up?

Sometimes I play a game with myself and see how long before a Mum talks about sleep. Its rarely more than 5 minutes.

If my baby isn’t sleeping I’d prefer to distract myself and not talk about it. I want to talk about movies, coffee, Kevin Rudds strange tweets – anything else! If my baby is sleeping I definitely couldn’t be bothered talking about it.

That conversation I mentioned earlier – well of course those Mums were talking about sleep. As I write the above I realise I’m guilty of all these boring conversation downfalls. And for this I apologise.

I also realise it’s my charitable duty to listen to boring conversations. After all, finding a conversation boring is very subjective. One persons boring blathering is another’s wit and wisdom.